T. R. O. Y.

well; im sittin here on anotha day off watchin vh1 and their MANY countdowns.
and my favorite BY FAR is the 100 Greatest HipHop Songs :]
and omg son, this shit makes me soo happy, let me explain.

i got all these issues nowadays, monetary, family, so on and so on..
and as corny as it may sound; i def feel priveleged to have grown up in BrooklynNY.
as flawed as vh1's list is, i remember all of these songs coming out.
i remember every one of these tracks blaring out the boom box in the summer.
my pops would sit on the top of the stoop and jus play track after track.
and as hot as it was outside, we didnt go in til the sun went down.

sometimes im miserable, unhappy and whatnot, but its these times wen
i reminisce about how i grew up and im truly happy :] i love hiphop.
rap is something you do, hiphop is something you LIVE. its a culture..
this whole concept is often argued, but thats how i feel, the artists that dont sell out;
the artists that do what they love despite whats popular..they are HIP HOP ARTISTS.

and thats what i love, i love hiphop, and all of its elements:
the b-boys :] the the emcee's :] the dj's & what i hold most dear to my heart,
the GRAFFITI; as much as me and my father have drifted over the years..
i have nothing but respect for the shit he did back in the day; and even today
when i see him draw or just write my name for fun it gives me that corny warm feeling.
my dad's tag is KEYS and sometime wen im in NY i still be seeing some of his throwies.
that is the dopest shit ever to me, talkin about all this actually overwhelms a little.

i wish things could be the way the use to be; i wish i could go back in time
and try and appreciate all the culture that surrounded me just a little bit more.
well; im guna go listen to these feel good jams and just chill..
and fa all my old school funky heads out there; one. two. three. GET LOOSE NOW!
lmao; have a good one my loves.

peace& prosperityy ♥
--killuh™

shxt just aint riqht..

i dont even know what to say..
i havent written in forever and there are NO words.
i just dont feel the same anymore; i hate being inside my own head.
i've been smoking a lot & i like that it makes me not think about too much.
but i don't wana smoke that shit everyday...
i'm just scared, cause i'm at that point with booqieman, where it usually
starts to go downhill.. he could lie, and talk to a million other girls;
and it wouldn't surprise me one bit, cause this is what i'm use to.
and as this pattern plays out AGAIN, i cant say shit to him..
because once i express anything, its taken out of context and used against me.
i just feel like this is guna be a bad day. so let me go get ready for work..
--shit is guna suck, i can already feel it...



wudeva;
--killuh™

well well well.. bigUPS to my bk girls!!

SOOO; i love me some Charles Hamilton; but he wrong fa this.
he put her on blast, when she aint even say nothin THAT foul about him.
he def deserved to get hit like that, and she def gets the BIG UPS!
just watch..



killuh™

i found a lonq lost friend of mine ... *

well well well; look what i found.. its my long lost dimple !

hahaa.. i realized that it shows up only wen im tryinq NOT to smile and lately

ive been doing alot of that; before i was finding reasons to smile; but now i can

honestly say im REALLY REALLY happy. shxt at home gets rough sometimes...

but lately there havent been any issues, i have good friends, nd SOME not so

good ones, but who's couting? its not the quantity, its the QUALITY! my cupcake

michelle, just left today for boston, i fuckin love that hoee, as much as me &

keaidy have faded over the years, i still love her, and she better be with me today wen

i go back to the "TRAPHOUSE" to finish my tattoo :] sounds ghetto ehh? lmaooo.

i have my ryan, he's like sunshine, he makes my day so bright, and its funny cause

we havent talked in a few days cause he's been outta town and its rained everyday we havent talked.

must be a sign lol; i have my loveliees at work, esp kelly, aka kelly kush! haha, thats my bxtch maaan.

oh & some craaaazy shxt, my mom wants me to go to therapy for my adhd & anxiety issues, but wtf.

i dont believe in their methods, i dont believe in their medicines && i got WAY TOO MANY PROBLEMS!

lmao; but idk, maybe its just me, but i really think everyone has these problems, im just aware of them haha.

lets see:

i smoke the ganj; im addicted to SEX; i have a serious anxiety disorder & i panic often;

i have NO KINDA attention span; im afraid to be alone; i GOT ISSUES MAN! but idgaf.

who doesnt? but idk, i def need to get up and make some moves today, lemme get off my ass,

off this computer, and get my life togetha.

ADD ME:

twitter.com/killuhxcici

myspace.com/__killuh

&& idk the fckin thing for facebook; but look up Alicia Muniz on facebook.com hahaa.

peace&prosperityy <333

--killuh™

killuh;s BACK !.

well; well; well; i told myself i'd get back on here like i use to be..
and i truly do apologize to yu all for taking that leave of absence.
if yu all even knew what was goin on durin my bloggin break yu'd slap me;
for TWOreasons:

1. the reason i stopped bein on here was because my "EX" antwan aka phresh
decided that my bloggin was hurtin our relationship [dont read than nigga.]
2. that muufxcka stayed cheatin on me after countless second chances &&
i finally got back to basics, before he made me bxtchass, and told him to
go fxck himelf & to delete my numba frm his fone & my LIFE frm his MEMORY!

lmaoo; yes! its that serious people hahaa;
well lets have a little update on whats been goin on in the life of killuh™
--in the past few weeks ive almost been kickd out the house twice.. im still here lol
my mom loves me too much to let me go so im not too worried bout that !.
--umm, my 20th bday passed on apr25. :] good stuff. jus one year till i can
supress my deep emotional baggage with alcohol .. legally ! lmao
--ive been smoking alot lately, at first i thought it was because of the stress..
but im not that stressed out ... so i mite just be a pothead lmao
--and my moms been super-sick lately, i wish she'd smoke w me... she has
lupus, fibromyalgia, rhumatoid(sp?) arthritis, hbp, sleep apnea, EVERYTHING!!
ima jus keep prayin though, cause idk what i'd do wo my mami.
--i started talkin to an old friend, i shall call him boogieMAN on here. he's
jus the best, ofc like anyother guy, there are certain aspect of him that im not fond of;
like his love for the ladies, but i jus adore his whole spirit. "his essence is a blessing"

beside all that, i cant think of any other updates, but i def did miss my blog.
and i hope all my loving followers missed me as well;
i really do love being on here, and i deeply regret how i allowed someone
sway me away from this; anyways.. ima let it ride; and hopefully tonite..
ill be back writing to yu all again :]

I'M BAAAAAACKKKKK BxTCHES !. lmao

peace&&prosperityy♥♥
--killuh™