#fml #fyl

i'm at this weird place in my life where things are good and bad at the same time.
i always get like this; i can truly say i cant remember a time when everything was good.

i just want.. BALANCE !

#i'mBAAAACK.

i've always prided myself on being real..

when i was broke and had nothing i couldnt let anybody stand in the way of my getting what i wanted.

and now that i'm on the road to where i wanna be and my path is clear...

i'm realizing that there are a few people i haven't been fully honest with.

don't get me wrong, i haven't lied, i've never been a liar and i won't start now.

but maybe i haven't told the entire truth, it's probably because i haven't been 100% honest with myself.

since i was last here on blogger, which has been a minute... sorry :'[

so much has changed in my life. i have a job that i love SOOO MUCH.

i'll have a car soon and i just got a full-time spot so hopefully i'll be out on my own soon too!

with all the good that is finally going on, i still don't feel completely at ease in my mind.

i feel single, but there's one person i want in my life, and i speak to him as often as possible.

he should be here and he isn't, so i feel like i need to do my own thing to spare myself...

i'm extremely torn, i don't wana meet new people and ruin what we have, but i don't wana

hold on to something that may never be. i'm extremely skeptical and i don't want the stress

or added pressure. i don't wana be the one to have to hurt somebody.

ugh; i'm venting. my first post back to the blogosphere should've been more positive.

when i think of something good to talk about i'll be back, and when i get things on track

i'll definitely try and get back to writing everyday!

love you all who haven't left my side despite my being MIA :D

peace && prosperity to all.

I'M SOOO SRRY BLOGGER !

- i've been slacking on my blog.
- i've been slacking on checkin on my other FAVE blogs.
- i got a new job & i've been training for 2 weeks :D
- i got someone who loves me entirely.
- i need to dye my roots desperately.
- its only 8pm and i'm tired already.
- tomorrow is new yrs eve and i plan on doin it BIG!
- i truly believe 2010 is my year.
i know this blog sucks right now; but i had to give a little update;
just so you all don't lose faith in me...i'll be back in 2010 to make things right and put some focus into this blog!

#AMEN.

pic via THE SEGMENT

THIS IS FOR ALL YU NICKI MINAJ DICKRIDERS;
I TOLD YOU SO!
NOTHING ORIGINAL ABOUT THE BITCH.
KIM IS STILL/ALWAYS WILL BE QUEEN B!
& NICKI IS NOTHING BUT A BAD-CLONE.

SERPENTINA :D

sooo; i LOVE cake boss on TLC; i DVR it every monday nite.
& tonite was an extraaa special episode; because not only
did they do a cake for the CONEY ISLAND SIDESHOW :D
but my cousin SERPENTINA "the snake lady" was their.
yes! my literal cousin; flesh & blood :D i've always admired
her, she's so different & its SO beautiful to me.
she's super tall; like a PUERTO RICAN AMAZON CHICA :D
&& she has a wild split tongue; and she doesnt give a FCK!
and thats why i love my cousin SERPENTINA OR..stephanie<3 lol

thats her ! beautiful righ? well; im off now;
&& ill update latr since i been MIA lately.
peace && prosperity babies :]