tryna post this mobile blog;

I've beefed wid everyone lately, my parents for reasons only god knows,
michelle yesterday, julian every time we talk, which isn't often cause
he never calls...my managers. And I'm tired. I'm miserable at my job,
I'm miserable in life...someone please tell shit is guna be better than
this. I don't give a fuck anymore, I think no matter what, this is the
week that I quit, new job or not. Everyone tells me how stupid that
sounds, how the economy is shit and I should really stick it out and
wait, but I can't compromise my happiness, or my fuckin sanity any
longer.

I gotta find PEACE of mind !
-->>Sent from KillUH™'s T-Mo Sidekick®

half sleeve ideas...*

im def getting this chik tattoo'd on my arm, i decided i wana
devote half of my left arm to the wonders of graffiti, like a collage
of all diff types, maybe ill let my dad draw somthing up [who knows]
but fafi is a must, and probably banskey too! oh my..im excited.
bettr tone up these arms first though :D

REGINE & SOME IXs...ummm, thas soo cute.

i wish i could have found the exact picture..

regine was coming home from the gym

& she took off these beautiful clean ass IXs

and i was in awe... jus thought i should share it.

living single --best sitcom ever!

the WACKNESS.

i know times are kind of rough these days
and everyone is seraching for a job, but i feel like maybe
its not as bad as everyone makes it seem.
like whenever times get rough people wana use whatever is
goin on as an excuse. i understand layoffs are happening
and people are being asked to step down...but sometimes thats not
as bad as people make it seem; maybe i jus see the dopeness in everything;

people need to stop being so negative, your lifestyle may have to slightly
diminish, you wont be able to eat out everyday...cook at home!
you may not be at work all fuckin day..but who cares? spend time with loved ones.
work on your tan, read a book, get some! and yu know what...
im not guna lie, it feels really good to save up for something yu really want.

well; okay, i most def didnt plan on talkin about all that but i did...
now let me get to the real point...i absolutely HATE my job.
i've never hated anything quite so much, i dread going into that place.
usually i wouldnt put my place of employment on blast but...PUBLIX!
lmao, i put on my ugly ass uniform and i stand in the mirror and i
actually want to cry. like, EW whyyy? i dont wanaaaaa...a mini tantrum.

well i recently learned that as you work for publix, they put money in stock for you;
your money lmao..how nice of them! and only if you work for 3+ yrs,
when you "retire" aka QUIT they give you whatever money you've built up.
well, guess whaaaaaat! i've been there for 3 yrs and 1 month lmao.
and over these years ive acquired atleast 15hunnit. :D

so....i know everyone keeps telling me, don't quit until you have a new job.
but i'm miserable. should i sacrifice my happiness for a few dollars a week.
i'm not guna sit here and lie and say ohh, i can live off 1500 for a month,
and ill look for a job the entire time, thas a damn lie! cause i can shop thru
1500 in NO time baby. lmao but there's this place my best friend works at;
and im pretty positive i can get a job there no problem.
sooo.. should i quit? should i continue to be miserable and wait it out?

come on, give me some advice blog world..
well, ima go eat this pernil, arroz con habichuelos & platanos my mom made.
yes, she's the fckin best, cause im hungry as hell.

well; my lovers, leave suttin and i appreciate the love in advance.
peace & prosperityy <3
killuh™




oh & PS; the wackness is a movie, and its my favorite...WATCH IT!

*MEN are the NEW W O M E N !

so; ive always felt this way, but it wasnt until NOW that its bugged me.
i'm a single girl...so i talk to whoever i please and i know i should probably
slow down and keep to one dude, but i don't have to, so i won't.
but lets give a few men nickname, we'll call one lauderdale [lol] and the
other...uhmmm...izzy. i'll just focus on these two for now.

first izzy, he says he wants to be my man, at first it was lookin good,
like when he wasnt at work his time was pretty much all about me...
he was textin me a lot, and callin me before i went to bed [big plus for me]
cause i def loooove attention. well, i've always been really mad when people
say they're going to do ANYTHING and they just don't...not even with an excuse.
well, two days in a row he said, YAAA BABY, IMA CALL TONITE, PROMISE.

and he didnt. surprise fuckin surprise !
so i went to ft. lauderdale for a few days [haha..lauderdale] and he text me
ONE of those nights, and i didnt reply...so he got tight. blahzaay bla.
& when i got back to orlando, i text him and was like imy, why havent we talked?
and he got mad & argues...and so he's ignored me for the last like 3 days...
so finally today i hit him up and was like; OHH, SO YU IGGIN ME NOW?
and he was like, NAH..IS JUS THAT YU GOT ME TIGHT.
wtf? who does that? esp with someone yu tryna wife and what not..
thats so fuckin childish maaan, and thats what i told him;
"your a fuckin litle kid
who does shit like that?
yu tryna be wid me & ur guna igg me evrytime ur mad?
fuck outta here !"

...still no response LMAO;

okaaay, now to lauderdale, i've known him since back in february,
we've talked on & off since then and it was cool cause i went down to
ft.lauderdale and was finally able to see him, so we hooked up & chilled.
now; lemme take yu back in time, the reason me and him started talkin
was because i was kinda talkin to his friend mike, not even anythin serious.
mike came to orlando wid all his friends and we chilled and aftr that...
we didnt really talk much anymore...so lauderdale asked if it was cool that
he get my number and talk to me...and mike handed me off with no problem!

so me and lauderdale chilled, the beach was right there so it was cute as hell;
we sat on this little lifeguard thing and made out til a cop came by and said
that we werent allowed to sit there, so we went to my hotel and chilled by the pool...
and things popped off, needless to say, it was a good good night.
ended with a kiss like all good nights should.
and since ive come home we've talked everyday, be it texts or calls;
and so last nite SUPPOSEDLY, lauderdale was sleepin and mike was usin his phone;
and he decided to IM me and tell me how he thought he was in love with me,
and that i shud move down ther and be with him...bla bla bla
all from LAUDERDALE'S SCREENAME! i felt like it was weird, so i didnt embarass
myself, and i was like, "uhmm, this is all of a sudden, and really weird that out of
nowhere yu would feel some type of way about me... wtf?"
and then he signed off and mike's sn signed on; good job asshole! thats not obvious.
and he im'ed me wen we havent talked in forever, so i igged him til he left me alone;

and this morning i called lauderdale and was like?
"i must have stupid brawd written all over my face!
did yu think i wasnt guna think that shit was a little odd?
ya friend is a true piece of shit and your grimy too..
cause i would never let anybody do some shit like that to you."

and he had a million excuses...


NEEDLESS TO SAY; i feel like in the next few days i'll be talkin to two less dudes.
i guess i really need to start lookin elsewhere for my men, cause the ones im
fuckin with now are ridiculous. lets be real, i dont like catty bitches, why would
i like catty dudes who get all emotional and ignore yu when they're mad?
and why would i like dudes who let they're friends try and play me?
all stupid female traits...and if i wanted all that shit, i'd be a goddamn lesbian !

well; those are my thoughts for now.
i promise ill start regularly writing again...PROMISE!

peace & prosperityy;
--killuh™