*MEN are the NEW W O M E N !

so; ive always felt this way, but it wasnt until NOW that its bugged me.
i'm a single girl...so i talk to whoever i please and i know i should probably
slow down and keep to one dude, but i don't have to, so i won't.
but lets give a few men nickname, we'll call one lauderdale [lol] and the
other...uhmmm...izzy. i'll just focus on these two for now.

first izzy, he says he wants to be my man, at first it was lookin good,
like when he wasnt at work his time was pretty much all about me...
he was textin me a lot, and callin me before i went to bed [big plus for me]
cause i def loooove attention. well, i've always been really mad when people
say they're going to do ANYTHING and they just don't...not even with an excuse.
well, two days in a row he said, YAAA BABY, IMA CALL TONITE, PROMISE.

and he didnt. surprise fuckin surprise !
so i went to ft. lauderdale for a few days [haha..lauderdale] and he text me
ONE of those nights, and i didnt reply...so he got tight. blahzaay bla.
& when i got back to orlando, i text him and was like imy, why havent we talked?
and he got mad & argues...and so he's ignored me for the last like 3 days...
so finally today i hit him up and was like; OHH, SO YU IGGIN ME NOW?
and he was like, NAH..IS JUS THAT YU GOT ME TIGHT.
wtf? who does that? esp with someone yu tryna wife and what not..
thats so fuckin childish maaan, and thats what i told him;
"your a fuckin litle kid
who does shit like that?
yu tryna be wid me & ur guna igg me evrytime ur mad?
fuck outta here !"

...still no response LMAO;

okaaay, now to lauderdale, i've known him since back in february,
we've talked on & off since then and it was cool cause i went down to
ft.lauderdale and was finally able to see him, so we hooked up & chilled.
now; lemme take yu back in time, the reason me and him started talkin
was because i was kinda talkin to his friend mike, not even anythin serious.
mike came to orlando wid all his friends and we chilled and aftr that...
we didnt really talk much anymore...so lauderdale asked if it was cool that
he get my number and talk to me...and mike handed me off with no problem!

so me and lauderdale chilled, the beach was right there so it was cute as hell;
we sat on this little lifeguard thing and made out til a cop came by and said
that we werent allowed to sit there, so we went to my hotel and chilled by the pool...
and things popped off, needless to say, it was a good good night.
ended with a kiss like all good nights should.
and since ive come home we've talked everyday, be it texts or calls;
and so last nite SUPPOSEDLY, lauderdale was sleepin and mike was usin his phone;
and he decided to IM me and tell me how he thought he was in love with me,
and that i shud move down ther and be with him...bla bla bla
all from LAUDERDALE'S SCREENAME! i felt like it was weird, so i didnt embarass
myself, and i was like, "uhmm, this is all of a sudden, and really weird that out of
nowhere yu would feel some type of way about me... wtf?"
and then he signed off and mike's sn signed on; good job asshole! thats not obvious.
and he im'ed me wen we havent talked in forever, so i igged him til he left me alone;

and this morning i called lauderdale and was like?
"i must have stupid brawd written all over my face!
did yu think i wasnt guna think that shit was a little odd?
ya friend is a true piece of shit and your grimy too..
cause i would never let anybody do some shit like that to you."

and he had a million excuses...


NEEDLESS TO SAY; i feel like in the next few days i'll be talkin to two less dudes.
i guess i really need to start lookin elsewhere for my men, cause the ones im
fuckin with now are ridiculous. lets be real, i dont like catty bitches, why would
i like catty dudes who get all emotional and ignore yu when they're mad?
and why would i like dudes who let they're friends try and play me?
all stupid female traits...and if i wanted all that shit, i'd be a goddamn lesbian !

well; those are my thoughts for now.
i promise ill start regularly writing again...PROMISE!

peace & prosperityy;
--killuh™