a whole bunchaa NUFFiN.

i wish i'd been keepin a blog since guys became a factor in my life;
it seems so pathetic that i allow such a large amount of my daily stress
and anxiety to come from guys that i honestly believe will never help
me to further myself in life. but it fcks with my head; i mean --they do!
they're there wen i' m down, bummed, vulnerable, hurt...all that.
sooo, pretty much; they find me at my weakest BUILD ME UP;
and in the end they break me down; sometimes even lower than they'd found me.
its crazy --i'm usually the one tellin my friends; GIRL-DONT U LEARN?
DON'T CRY OVER NO NIGGAS. YOURE TOO GOOD FOR THAT.
but i never take my own advice, and idk why, its been going on so long;
and its so played out and overdone it seems inevitable..
and the funny shit --i allow myself to completely give myself to people who
don't want anything to do with my heart but fck it up & break it down.
this sounds so lame; and honestly i sound lame as fck writing this.
if i were readin this shit on someone elses page; id be like SERIOUS ??

anyways; ill xplain the situation in full later one; but im off to bed for now.
peace & prosperityy..
killuh™