i've always prided myself on being real..
when i was broke and had nothing i couldnt let anybody stand in the way of my getting what i wanted.
and now that i'm on the road to where i wanna be and my path is clear...
i'm realizing that there are a few people i haven't been fully honest with.
don't get me wrong, i haven't lied, i've never been a liar and i won't start now.
but maybe i haven't told the entire truth, it's probably because i haven't been 100% honest with myself.
since i was last here on blogger, which has been a minute... sorry :'[
so much has changed in my life. i have a job that i love SOOO MUCH.
i'll have a car soon and i just got a full-time spot so hopefully i'll be out on my own soon too!
with all the good that is finally going on, i still don't feel completely at ease in my mind.
i feel single, but there's one person i want in my life, and i speak to him as often as possible.
he should be here and he isn't, so i feel like i need to do my own thing to spare myself...
i'm extremely torn, i don't wana meet new people and ruin what we have, but i don't wana
hold on to something that may never be. i'm extremely skeptical and i don't want the stress
or added pressure. i don't wana be the one to have to hurt somebody.
ugh; i'm venting. my first post back to the blogosphere should've been more positive.
when i think of something good to talk about i'll be back, and when i get things on track
i'll definitely try and get back to writing everyday!
love you all who haven't left my side despite my being MIA :D
peace && prosperity to all.
